This grief

Artist Ruth Asawa

So what-

You have forgiven me

But I haven’t forgiven you

What now do we do?

As I hold on

To this grief like never before

I don’t want to turn away

It’s too good, too juicy,

This chaos, a thrill.

It’s been a slow year these moments far between

I’m looking for something

It’s not you it’s me.

They gave it a name I’ve yet to internalize

I’m too, way too much invested to analyze.

please just tell me the truth

I’m I not broken enough for you?

D.G.